Thursday, March 31, 2011

Thoughts!!!

So I know my normal posts are crafts and my 52 week project, which I must say I am really starting to enjoy more and more every week. Its starting to get warmer around her so it will be nice to actually be able to get out into the world and take a few pictures in the outside world. So onto my reason for this post. I never really seem to open up on here but for some reason I feel the need to just get it all out. We have been trying, not avoiding, practicing I don't know what you call it for the past 5 months, with no success. This is becoming harder and harder on me. Everyone says your young it will happen, and I know all of that is true but its so hard to think something you want so bad and you can't have it. Today official marks the start of Cycle #5, I laid there tonight thinking how can I want something so bad and can't have it but yet every month I get this horrible painful reminder that I cant have it. DH tries to be as supportive as possible but sometimes he just can't follow my emotions. We have both agreed to wait until December to go to the DR and ask for help but the closer July gets (back story in a moment) the more worried I get. Ok so let me back up and explain why July is a looming month for me. Last July I was diagnosed with Endometriosis and I had a laporoscopy done and had a large cyst removed. When we went back for the follow up the DR.H told us then that we had a year to get pregnant. I know he can't a stop watch on my Uterus and I know Endo has not technically been linked to infertility but its still a problem. So the closer July gets with no baby the harder all of this becomes. I want more than anything in this world is to give my Husband a baby and I know he is perfectly happy living our life just he way it is and he would never resent me if I cant. I just cant help but wonder would I resent myself. I am really sorry for rambling but I really felt I needed to get that out tonight!!!!!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Week 13 of 52 Week Photo Project!!!!

Well yesterday was my photography class and I must say I did learn a lot so I decided to go outside in the yuck and put my class to the test. We have this tree growing in our backyard and I have no idea what the tree is but its very pretty. Hopefully in the next few weeks we can get everything cleared up back there so you can actually see the tree.

f/3.5 SS 1/640 ISO 400

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Week 12 of 52 Week Photo Project!!!

We spent the weekend at DH's Uncle's Lake house. It was so much fun. My Father in Law and DH cooked oysters for everyone. It was a great weekend. The lake is not warm enough to get into yet but its definitely a great get away spot. This picture is from the yard looking down on the dock where we spend all of our time when we are down there in the summer. Cant wait to go back soon. Hopefully we will make it for the July 4th party!!!!!!
f/4.0 SS 1/125 ISO 400.

Now off to watch one of my MOST favorite shows, Army Wives. It's filmed where we grew up so its fun to see all the places they go that I recognize.
Thanks,
Mrs. Dyer

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Week 11 of 52 Week Photo Project

I totally suck!!! I know I am so far behind but my allergies have killed me all week and all I have really done is slept. This past weekend I had the luxury of doing a photo shoot with some friends new baby girl. I am very pleased with how they turned out. Here is one of my favorites. I only got one picture of both of their children. Thank goodness it was a good one.
f/2.2 SS 1/25 ISO 400

I will have a full preview of this in the coming days. We are headed to the lake this weekend so hopefully I will have a few options for week 12.
Thanks,
Mrs. Dyer

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Week 10 of 52 Week Photo Project!!!

Well I made it to week 10!!!!! I feel accomplished, hopefully in the coming weeks I can actually get out and take a few pictures outside!!!! Here is this weeks.

f/5.6 SS 1/30 ISO 400

Thanks,
Mrs. Dyer